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Sunday, January 31, 2010

An Experience, A Gift... :)



 I remember sitting on a creaky red chair in a marriage party when I must have been nine, or probably a sober ten. The common Indian verbal ruminations about what not in the world, by “who not” Indian females, were in the air all around under the fluttering typical reddish tent. Yes, tent. I am talking about 11 years ago. Anyway, I obviously couldn’t understand such ‘relevant’ women stuff at that time (with not much of a difference to this fact even today when I am 21 :P). This led me to stick to my chair obediently and wait for my parents to finish their miserably important socialising. Keeping me accompany was the chilly weather and the sound of the noisy dhol. In between all the social paranoia, I remember a very strange incident that happened. It happened with me. And the crux is, it was something which was totally unexpected. (Though really felt afterwards...)

Fiddling with the golden button on my baby black suit, I remember someone occupying another chair besides me. Shockingly, it was a girl. And the bigger shock was, she was looking at me. Direct, into the eyes. Actually what was actually a shock was the combo that she was pretty, she was a “girl” and she seemed to be inclined towards breaking a conversation with me. ME! WOW! But with my characteristic straight faced expression (It is still there...for people who know me know it) I looked back and she made a statement, “You know, you are looking so damn cute.” With the help of her stunning smile, she managed to get through pulling my cheeks. (Now you would understand why the shock was “felt” afterwards :P). Later, she just stood up and went away. I was left bedazzled.

The reason for me to gape was the false proving of my own belief that girls don’t, and probably would never talk to me. Later on, I do remember clinging onto dad while walking out to catch an autorickshaw back home (we did not have a car at that time) with one recurrent question:

Me:        “Would girls ever talk to anyone like me when I grow old? Would I be able to make even friends, forget about girls?”
Dad:       “It is not what you actually think it is.”

Again, very obviously, at ten you cannot expect someone to infer this statement to flamboyant precision. Even I could not. I got nuggets of what it could mean, but I could not decipher exactly. So I ignored and life went on.

11 years later my memory serves me wonders. Life seems to have undergone a complete evolution. Studying engineering in one of the most specialised disciplines, my life, till now has been completely different from what I imagined it to be like. I transformed into a self-believer after eighth grade. Till then I used to bear a lot of appalling comments, disgraceful looks and ignorant gestures. I was no more than a ludicrous dope! Right from the beginning of my school, I used to be below the poverty line in the section of “friends”. Living in the negativity bubble around me, my academics suddenly began to suffer.  And suddenly I became broke in the section of “friends”. This struck a chord in me. I decided to walk backwards. And academics became my first step. Somehow things began to fall in place. I began to score well in my school. The world followed. I started reading novels, writing poems, studying academics, debating, gaming, socialising, understanding my culture, trying to become a good person........and what not! I even entered sports, though never could go beyond school level J. Maybe because....because I am differently abled. I realised that maybe I suffered the ignorance and avoidance during my initial life not because I was differently abled, but because I did not try to conquer my life. Maybe because I did not try to win over. Maybe I did not ever think that I CAN DO IT.
Now that I feel I did win over the difficulty and the hurdles, my address book comprises of more contacts of females than males.... ( I guess... :P) And yes, girls DO talk to me. J And I am pretty wealthy in the department of good friends now (like the one on whose request I am writing this post). :P J

So I understood a very important fact, which I would like every struggling person to keep in mind:






“It is not what you actually think it is.”



PS: I actually did not know what to write when I was told to do so. This was an impromptu when I came across a News channels award ceremony dedicated to the differently abled superstars... 
  
Cross posted for my sweet friend here 

 

28 comments:

Tweety said...

yipppeee i am d first to comment...

k i ll tell u from start vat i felt while reading the post (fr d first time i am commenting widout u telling me to comment...dats hw much i loved it :D)

1) ur straight faced look...lol...i am laughing....yea yea the sober one...who knws it bettr dan me :D aftr all do u ever do nything bhai :D..i had no idea wat u were writing on till den...

2) vat uncle said sobered my laugh into a smile..and now i knw wat to tell u every time u r low :D

3) yes the fact fr which i respect u d most...u have fought against the odds of life...n u have suceeded...

lastly (oh i want to write so much but den...u knw na :P) remember ur own statements...U CAN DO IT...u just have to try to win wd d right mindset...if u cld win den..u can win nw too god bless u..luv u..

PS: ask me about the friend list...it just goes on and on and on...n i am sure u keep that straigh face look always :D
n impromput my foot...amazing post...i ll come back to ur blog only to read dis post :)

Nik said...

@sis
Phew...!! But why you say impromptu my foot...!! :( it was that!!!!!!!


And thanks for al you said.....
I know it...you dont need to tell me. I already knew what you will say.

Prats said...

thanks :)

sm said...

MAY GOD SAVE YOU FROM THE PERSON WHO HAS COMMENTED BEFORE ME AND FOR WHOM YOU WROTE THIS POST!

sm said...

JUST TO LET YOU KNOW THAT SHE IS NOT SOMEONE SO SWEET AS YOU AND A BUNCH OF FOOLS THINK!SHE IS THE MEANEST AND CUNNING FEMALE ANYONE CAN COME ACROSS!IF YOU WANT TO KNOW MORE CONTACT US ANYTIME!

Nik said...

@sm
WHO THE HELL ARE YOU? I would really like to know your identity...and i would like you to prove it. cmon, i need a proof for all the crap you have just mentioned.......You have enough to suppport your ownself?

sm said...

GOOD TO HEAR FROM YOU DUDE! WHICH STAGE HAS THAT BITCH TAKEN YOU TO! INCASE YOU ARE WONDERING WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT PAY HEED TO MY NEXT POSTING!

sm said...


1. F-FIND A SCAPEGOAT

2. F-FLIRT WITH HIM

3. F-PRETEND TO FALL IN LOVE

4. F-FLAUNT YOUR BOOBS,BUTT AND VAGINA

5. F-ASK HIM TO FUCK

6. F-FLEECE HIM OF HIS MONEY AND BELONGINGS

7. F-FORGET ABOUT THE GUY

8. F-FLEE FROM THE PLACE

9. F-FEIGN PRETENCE WHEN THE LAW APPROACHES TO TAKE HER TO TASK!*

10. F-ASSUME FAKE IDENTITY

sm said...

IF YOU WANT TO KNOW MORE LET US KNOW! TELLING FOR YOU ROWN GOOD TO KEEP AWAY FROM THAT BITCH!


DONT CRY WHEN YOU GET TO KNOW HER TRUE COLORS! THERE ARE A LOT OF GUYS WHO WILL SAY AN AYE TO HER ACTIVITIES!

sm said...

YOUR BITCH PRATS THE WHORE HAS MADE HER BLOG PRIVATE! TELL HER IF SHE WANTS TO BE ALIVE TO STOP DOING IT! OR ELSE SHE WILL HAVE TO REPENT FOR BEING ALIVE!

mysterious gal said...

wow this post seriously gives me a big grin :D

Shwe said most of teh things i wanted to say so nevertheless :)

and i love ur Dad's reply....this has been my answer to many of ur queries sometimes....things r seriously not always what u think :)

and i know that straight face expression :P as if u wondering what's wrong and i m thinking i said the right.... :P

and i m really proud for the person you are and most importantly that i have a frnd like u :) what u achieved is something i could have never thought of :)

And i love ur optimism of I Can do it because i know that is something which will make u a achiever forever! Wish i can borrow some of that optimism in this phase of my life because its that belief i lack the most now.....so u keep that belief intact always and nothing can stop u from reaching the top!

And if this was a impromptu then ur a truly writing genius guy and ur impromptu is totally flawless and amazing ...loved it to the core!

Keep writing buddy :)

Nik said...

@sm
Dude, why do you say all this man? In a nutshell.

Nik said...

@nab
I want to talk to you. ON PHONE. There i will reply to all of this.

sm said...

ME NO DUDE DUDE!

sm said...

ALL THAT CAN TELL IS THAT THE TRUTH IS KNOWN TO US AND THAT PATHETIC BITCH WHOM YOU THINK IS A SWEET FRIEND!ONCE YOU EVERYTHING YOU WILL FEEL SO BITTER THAT YOU WILL AGREE TO DO AS WE SAY!!

sm said...

THE BLOG IS LIKE A PIMP FOR HER!ONCE SHE IS DONE WITH HER WORK OF ENTICING INNOCENTS LIKE YOU HER WORK IS DONE AND SHE GOES INTO HIDING AFTER DELETING THE BLOG!WANT TO KNOW MORE SO THAT YOU ARE SAFE AND KEEP OTHERS WARNED?

Nik said...

@sm
Yes dude..i want to know more. Why do you say all this man...?

sm said...

DID NOT KNOW THAT BEING WITH THAT BITCH WOULD MAKE YOU FORGOT ENGLISH!

CANT YOU UNDERSTAND WEHN I SAY THAT I AM NOT A DUDE DUDE!

sm said...

LET SOMETHINGS BE UNSAID DUDE! JUST HOPING THAT THE BITCH HAS NOT MADE YOU REACH STAGE 6! IF YOU ARE REALLY GOOD MAKE SURE THAT NONE EVEN REACH STAGE 1!!

Nik said...

@sm
what do you mean you are not dude man???

sm said...

I AM A GIRL WHO IS MUCH BETTER LOOKING THAN THAT BITCH WHO CALLS HERSELF PRATS!

sm said...

SO IS THAT BITCH STILL ALIVE?IF YOU ARE SOMEONE REALLY A GUY LET ME KNOW HER BLOG URL!

Nik said...

@sm
I am a guy..but she has deleted her blog. I cannot help it....why are you so furious but? This is intriguing me now...

sm said...

WHY DONT YOU ASK THAT BITCH TO DELETE HERSELF FROM THE FACE OF THIS EARTH?

sm said...

DONT BE SO SO CURIOUS DUDE!ASK THAT COWARDLY BITHC AS SHE WILL TELL YOU EVERTYHING!TELL HER THAT DELETING BLOGS WONT HELP HER TO DELETE THE SINS AND FAULTS SHE HAS DONE AND CONTINUES TO DO SO!!HOPING THAT YOU AINT A VICTIM TO IT!!!

Nik said...

@sm
You know what, i really am intrigues by this now. I wanna know, and sach bataaun to i dont feel good talking here. Can i talk to you somewhere else?

sm said...

DID THAT BITCH OFFER YOU A FREE FUCK TODAY AS ITS A VALENTINES DAY?!AS ITS BEEN A TRADITION FOR HER AND HER DESCENDATNS TO DO SO ON THIS DAY! IF NOT GO GET YOUR LUST FULFILLED TODAY!!

sm said...

TELL THAT RANDI THAT NO USE THAT SHE HIDES OR DELETSE HERSELF! WHEN TRUTH IS KNOWN NONE OF YOU WILL EVEN LOOK AT HER EVEN IF SHE GIVES HERSELF FOR FREE AS SHE IS A PATHETIC SLUT

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